I shouldn’t have left you without a dope beat to step to.
Just kidding this is not that kind of a post, but brownie points if you know that famous intro.
I guess I should start by saying that these past few months have been really hard for me. As some of you know I was working for a family from my church doing private in-home care for an elderly woman . Mid-way through April she had a serious fall and I was informed that I was no longer needed to work there. I went through a really hard time. This was not a job that I had planned to leave until I was done with school and a lot of things started hitting me all at the same time.
I’m about to get really raw with you guys so you can feel free to reach out to me if you want to know more.
This blog I decided was just meant to Chronicle my journey as an artist and fashion designer trying to move into the career that I want to be in. When you’ve been out of work 3 months, and you have a small child who needs things, and you have bills that are piling up, and you have other expenses like gas and food that are day-to-day, if you have an opportunity to find a job that will pay for those things you can be tempted to cave.
Which is what I did.
Keep in mind I’m about to explain to you one of the biggest miracles that has ever taken place in my life. And it doesn’t start in a very good place but I promise you the ending is well worth it so please keep reading.
I interviewed at the ArtCentre of Plano three times, and three times I was told that the director/ curator of the museum needed to think about it. I received one of the best recommendations that I ever could have received from someone . I made sure that every good reference that I could have provided for her was available and for about a month-and-a-half I didn’t hear anything. That was a really hard time for me guys because every day I would start out hopeful and by the end of that day I was crushed. I would spend my mornings lying awake at 3 and 4 a.m. trying to build up my confidence as best I could to try and get myself in a place where I can handle doing the interviews only to be told that I wasn’t the right fit or that my resume was not what they were looking for or not even receiving a call back.
About 45 days ago I was notified that I received an offer from Texans Credit Union for employment. And it was the hardest decision I’ve ever made but I took the job. It was a really weird time because I was both elated and devastated. I had spent all of that time looking for jobs in the field that I wanted to be in, art and fashion, only to end up in a call center again. And on top of that I signed up for a job that I knew would be hard for me to keep because I would have to come in for training on Saturdays. If you know me well you know that I’m a Seventh Day Adventist, and if you know anything about Seventh-day Adventist we do not work on the Sabbath which is Friday Sundown to Saturday sundown. This is a sacred day of worship for us and we believe that just like it says in the Ten Commandments that that is a day that we are supposed to keep holy and not to work on. While I was working at Texans I had to come in for a Saturday training and I felt sick.
Now notice I said was, here comes the good part.
Someone I Used to Know, the same someone who gifted me this blog to be able to document my journey told me once that it’s okay to accept a shity job, as long as you are using the hours you are not working to keep looking for the job that you’re supposed to be in. Seeing as how the job that I was working at Texans was not in my career field and required me to come in on Saturdays the decision to keep looking was a no-brainer. I have never prayed so hard in my entire life to be led to the right place.
Now for this next part I need you to sit down, because everyone that I tell this to has goosebumps and can’t believe what I’m telling them that I swear it is the honest truth.
One day while I’m on my way into work at Texans this feeling comes over me and I hear a voice say call Suzy. I promise I’m not crazy but I’ve always been taught that when you hear or feel the need to do something you don’t argue with it you do it because you’re being led by the Holy Spirit or by God. I know this sounds crazy but if you’re a Christian or you how Christian friends believe me they understand. So even though I know that this woman has told me three times that she wanted to think about it and she wanted us to meet again, I called her. I left a voicemail asking if the position that I interviewed for has been filled and I let her know about the job that I had taken and how it was going. I let her know that I was having problems with my boss about allowing me to keep the Sabbath, and then I had to voluntarily compromise on this in order to provide for my daughter and it was something that was hard for me to do but I made the decision to do it. I wanted Suzy to know Straight Out The Gate what I could do and I couldn’t do for her. I have no idea why I felt the need to say this because again I believe she was genuinely not interested in me . While I was at at my desk the Friday before last I received a call. No normally when I’m at my desk in a call center I do not answer phone calls. I just don’t believe it’s very professional and it violates security. Something told me to answer it, so I logged out of my computer and I walked into a private conference room that I know wasn’t used and I answered the phone . On the other line was the event coordinator from the ArtsCentre of Plano. She started out by saying that she’d gotten my message . What she said next caused me to collapse into tears in a dark and empty conference room. She started out by saying that this conversation never happened. Which means I can’t give you a lot of details. What I will say is that when God has a message for you, he will send the most unlikely people to say verbatim exactly what you asked him to reply to you for and when I tell you that the words that she used were the exact match to the prayer that I had prayed Alone FOR 2 weeks , and when I tell you that I had been praying this for the last 2 weeks and for the last two weeks she had been sent on purpose to find my phone number and to call me back to invite me to meet with Miss Susie that Monday at 1:30, and when I tell you that this woman is also a Sabbath keeper, and that she knew exactly how I felt because she had done the same thing as a single mom in order to provide for her children, I’m telling you it’s not a coincidence. This is a full-fledged miracle. I couldn’t make this up if I tried. Everything that she said was an answer to everything that I had asked for , no more no less. and exactly to the point in the words that I needed to hear. I knew this came straight from Him because of the way she said what she said. If you’re a Christian person you are familiar with the test of the fleece in the Old Testament. And for 2 weeks while I was praying that God would answer my prayers I kept my resignation letter saved on my desktop labeled with the word fleece. I made a deal with God that if he granted me an interview that I would turn in my resignation letter and go, even if I hadn’t received an official offer letter yet. And anyone in any work environment will tell you that is probably one of the dumbest things you can do. Long story short I started my first day as the business manager / assistant to the executive director & curator of the ArtCentre of Plano on Monday and I am so in love. We are setting up for a new exhibit, and it’s the craziest most exhausting most exciting and happiest I have ever been in my life. In the evenings I work on my capsule collection, and I do QuickBook tutorials because the job that I received has a lot because the job that I received has a lot more responsibilities than I have taken on previously. There are a lot of challenges, things that I previously would have said I am not ready for. There are a lot of scary things that I am fascing in my personal life things like going to family court tomorrow and facing my ex-husband who seems to think it’s okay to lie to our daughter and tell her that I am an irresponsible person who can’t hold down a job, and defend my actions to the attorney general and a judge for the state of Texas. Working really hard at several jobs trying to save so that I can move out with my daughter, who keeps asking me when we’re going to get our own place. It’s all feeling like a lot of weight on my shoulders. Usually when I get overwhelmed I get very quiet. Anyone who’s ever been my friend or is my friend now can tell you that. But this time feels different. This time I feel like the same God who led me to this position and allowed me to go through all that I went through will not leave me now, not when I need him the most. That if I was allowed to fill this position that provision will be made for me so that I can learn all that I need to learn either on the job or before the job really starts so that I can be successful. I’m confident that any woman who can become a judge for the State of Texas will be able to see through all of the lies my ex could cook up, and right to the heart of who I really am, a mom who has done everything she possibly could to get her life back on track after having a child and going through a divorce and having to restart my life again. I know my daughter knows the truth because she is good and she sees all of what’s happening so that no matter what things may pass into her ears she knows her mom and she knows that I’m doing the best that I can do. It won’t be easy but it is exciting and absolutely worth it.
I’ll leave you with this before I go . On my first day of work at the ArtCentre of Plano I met a former curator from Mount Vernon, Thomas Jefferson’s home that is now a museum who specializes in African-American art, and the Son of the owners of the collection that we are showing now at the ArtCentre of Plano. Both of them saw my sketches from college and believe that I have talent. I am lovingly referred to there as the fashion designer in residence. If you had told me four months ago that I would end up here, that I would have these kinds of opportunities I never would have believed you. I went from a girl who didn’t have $0.50 to her name to print a resume, to a girl that is actively saving for her own place and saving to travel and meeting local undiscovered Artist as well as esteemed Art Collectors and Curators known around the world.
I am Blessed
The LORD has done this, and it is marvelous in our eyes
Psalms 118: 23
I don’t have all the answers yet, but I have enough to know that this this is exactly where I need to be right now in my life and that everything else will be worked out . For the first time in in a long time I am completely grateful completely happy and completely confident.